Hmmm .. what can I say. I have been slacking!! Mostly this happened b/c I stopped logging on from home and well I was blocked at work so I just gave up. What is funny is that all of a sudden I can access it.. so what does it mean? It's a sign that I should write.
So what is there to say.... well I have a few things on my mind. First of all I have noticed that I've been kind of down lately. I am really upset w/ myself and all the things I have not done. So 3 months ago i was really motivated and wrote down all these programs i want to apply to and well lets just say 3 months later i'm sitting here - didn't apply to any one of them already passed and the one that i really want to do is due in 2 wks. They are really competitive programs but I will never know if i can get in if I dont try! I'm so upset. Why do I lack the motivation? What do I need to do in order to get up off my feet and just start moving? What happened to the old me that would just wake up early and go to the library to do problem sets on her own, or the one that just got up one day packed and left the state... or even more recent - when I would wake up at 545am to make it to the gym by 6am every m orning... what happened? Are there anti-lazy pills that I can take?
This is upseting - more upseting knowing that I can do it but I don't. I would feel better if I tried and got rejected b/c at least I tried. How many more gmat books do I need to buy before I actually get to it? GMAT 2010? :(
Not a good day.
Feeling quite blue.....
-Flaca
What a great feeling! It IS a new day...I am LOVING this video!!
90,000 people showed up to Obama's rally in Virginia last night. I can't even put into words what I felt at the moment but the way people were surrounding him afterward didn't just speak volumes about the man...but also about how badly we need this. And it was a bit heart wrenching to imagine what he must be going through with his grandmother, who raised him, passing away yesterday. To have to find the strength to keep going. I couldn't sleep afterwards and saw a couple last minute commercials put on by goptrust.com bringing up Rev. Wright once again. Sigh. What's most disgusting is the talk of Obama purposely planning his grandmother's death. Are you kidding me??
I voted about an hour ago and I feel like today is going to be the longest day ever! (By the way, am I the only one who feels like a mad scientist moving that huge lever in the voting booth? lol). I wish NY was a swing state. Anyway, good luck Obama! 
Watch this last Diddy blog and you will automatically fall in love with little D'Lila Combs (the one in blue). Love it! :-)
Dear Clothing stores and clothing designers and...,
I am 5'4". The average female height in the US is 5' 3.7.". Who the FUCK are you all selling/making pants for??!!!!!!
Last night I stopped by H&M to pick up some pants for an interview I had today. Lucky for me I could wear whatever I wanted at my last job so the last time I bought any kind of suit was right after colleg
e. And I guess I was smaller back then so last minute shopping I went.
It was 9pm so I grabbed a bunch of black and gray pants. TOO LONG!!! Seriously, what the deuce?! And then the ones that weren't so long that I would trip, were too tight on top 'causing some fake camel toe effect. If I went a size up, then they'd be okay up top but TOO LONG!!! Do they test these pants thinking that all women walk around in 6 inch heels all the time? I enjoy me a nice high heeled pair once in a while but
for the most part it slows me the fuck down. I had to buy a skirt instead.
This is also the reason I detest shopping for jeans. Aside from the 2 pairs of jeans of mine I really like, you force me to compromise and wear jeans that look "okay.". That is not okay!!! And don't tell me I can take them to so and so's to get them hemmed. Fuck you. Why should I settle for skinny jeans that bunch up like that 'cause they're too long?
We need to make some changes up in this piece. We need some realistic options. Some of us have short legs, tits and/or asses!!!! Maybe you should consider a raaange of sizes from jolly giant to shorty doo wop...from big ol' butt to nasitall. I'm tired of trying on dresses (and even coats) only to find that my bootay makes it look funny in the back because it wasn't made for me.
Ugh!
Best,
CC